cant believe this is the 100th. i havent been on much i started this thing in december and already, 100! i was going to do something something but i couldnt think of anything so nothing special is gonna be done.
i fucking HATE my body. i've gained a pound. idk if its even possible 2 nights ago it hit 129, i weighed last night it was 130, i just ate some crackers with cheese (two crackers and two peices of cheese) so its 131. probably because i ate again at night lastnight so it went off 129 quikly. dont worry though.. it will soon be gone.
now my stomach is going again and i just ate.. i shouldnt have. really. we're having spegheti tonight with that giant texas toast. my servings: 1/2 cup sauce, half up noodle to make a full cup. and a peice of toast. cals, they do have somethin to do with it but not all. im all about weight, which is stupid because weight flucuates so much. but if i was caught counting cals all the time, someone would know. i have great paranoia for that. i dont want to be found out i force dinner, at night its more of a compulsion. around 10ish i start thinking of food. my stomach doesnt start acting up until like, 2 or 3ish. but by then i usually dont eat. i know i can do it, annabeth does too =)
i never noticed how long my blogs really are. its nuts! i was going to tell everyone: i should have my comp SOON dad is almost done with it, hes gonna put a bigger hard drive in it and get a new one for him. he said to me: "if i dont sell it then i give it to you" i love him so much =) see everyone soon cant WAIT to have my computer back :D
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