im so tired of this fucking COLD ! i WANT TO WALK i want to jog i want to walk like i did before, 3-6 hours, no less then 3, it was usually 4 or 5. 20 or some odd miles. from home to walking trail to back home. one time i talked for 8 hours my legs were so sore i had to call my boyfriend to come get me just a few miles down the road. i need it so bad, i need to get out of this house. I NEED ONE DAY TO GET AWAY FROM IT ALL. FUCK !
summer time, thats what ana[beth] keeps saying, wait till summer, ill make you lose weight. "you wont eat but you'll move, and you'll lose. you'll figure out a way to get rid of it" i ask her, "what do i do when i dont want to disapoint my family, my friends, MY GOD. i know what.. I IGNORE YOU" and have my little dinner. i know i need to stop eating at night she dont need to tell me that. but she needs to let me eat durring the day, when im active when im gonna be walking. ill eat, ill shut her up.
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