i kinda feel like purging but the REAL REAL need to really like, need it.. isnt there. i just ate 2oz's of chicken and half cup milk. im perfectly full not overly stuffed. i weighed before i ate, i twas 124, im not really freaked from it cuz tonight and tommarow will most likely be under 200 cals any way.. so no big.
miss all my lovely friend! i've been aiding mike.. hes been sick! hope everyone is well
~NineDieingSouls
PS: i know its not spelled right i just think it looks better then "dying" it looked like im color dying souls, not souls that are 'dieing'
oh..one more thing!: i know 'purging' is stupid. but let me ask you something? when you starve yourself to death, (even me) would purging help except make the process slower? would it have helped, really? in the end? ask yourself it. 'mia' and 'ana' are not, people to me. they are something i refur to in my head to get myself to shut up. i dont want to be 'promoted' or enocouraged to starve and not to purge, because ill FUCKING do what i want, how i fucking WANT it and i dont really care what other people think. even ill say i wont, and when i do, i dont have to tell you. this is ME THIS IS ME doing what im DOING ok?
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