HAPPY MEMORIAL DAY!

i know, its not till monday but...

im happy to see my dad any time! im gonna go over tommarow so we can wash the dogs and clip their nails maybe ill just have a sandwhich over there or something; tonight we're having hamburgers which sounds really good lol of course, 2 oz meat, half cup potatos if. i dont know what dad is making on memorial day which is kind of freaking me out because i cant plan what i can eat. but i have to eat more then i want around dad because i dont want him to think that something is wrong. i already told dad and karen (dads girlfriend) that i eat less and dad says "well you should eat more, val" i just said under my breath i know... well. it shouldnt be too big of a deal but IT IS! omg hes gonna want me to drink beer! 102 cals per 8 ounce! FUCK! i havent drank in about a week, liqour that is and mike dont get beer. i usually have about 4-8 beers! 102 x 4 = 408 cals omfg................then if its 8.... 102 x 8 = 816! fuckin eh.. idk we all know im gonna drink i just need to stop freaking out about it. then july 16th.... i gotta get some 50 burgers, 50 hotdogs plain chips, sour cream and onion chips there was a couple other things and i seemed to have lost my list.... im getting angus burgers and hoffman hotdogs. ill prolly just have a burger no bun ect. blurgh i dont even WANT to think of all the food there!

soooo, i managed to skip dinner. i wound up eating 1/2 cup salad (15 cal per 2 cup) and two chicken wings. before i ate (approx 11:30 pm) the scale went to 124. after i ate it actually stayed on 124! so i weighed myslf after goin to the bathroom (finally) and it shrunk to 123! not bad eh! so tommarow and monday wont be so bad as long as i keep it to small portions.