145th post holy SHIT

so any way... i hooked up this keyboard. its one of those ones that first come out for USB port... it has the old cord on it and the USB onem the cord is freaking MASSIVE. this keyboard is HUGE but has volume controles on it all that good shit. it has a wrist rest too. not that it matters to me cuz i dont type the way they teach us in school; and no i dont peck at the keyboard either. my fingers are all over the place ;) i can type up 55mph i know its not as high as some but its still pretty damned good!

so any way... todays dinner was a TV dinner. im not complaining dad spent money on it we're out of food stamps..... so he spent money so we could have dinner. no big deal, it wasnt a huge meal... half cup potatos, half cup corn, 4 ounces meat (chicken), and a little 2oz brownie.. =) i weighed myself before i ate; 120... i didnt after. ialso had a whole cup of milk. it was OK not the greatest. the potatos were those instant ones but with a little butter (tripple ew) managed to get them down! dad and karen kept asking me if it was any good i think it was because i was taking such small bites; chewing inapropriatly long and playing with the food. so i picked up pace and gobbled it... i felt like purging but after two months of no purging at all; i havent much the desire of it and i feel i have a little more control over MiaMarie.

so... sorry i havent been blogging... everything been a little crazy. im growing beautiful plants from seeds they are looking great! mike and i worked things out. like, we're together but not... living together. we both agreed to not living together for a couple years so we can both get our shit together! im glad hes come to terms with it and i have too so.. =)

i havent had the major NEED to weigh all the time... although i do before and after i eat, sometimes up to 3 times... its not as bad as it was. so maybe moving outta there and getting our relationship is what i needed so i could help myself a little more.
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I maybe crazy but i am ME
I maybe Loud but i am truthful
I may laugh at stupid things but atleast i can
I maybe a complete bitch but its only because you dont like the truth.
I may like to cuss but atleast i can
I may be a mean person, but atleast i wont get stepped on.
I may not like you, but then again
i wont have to put up with your little games.
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Loving my new keyboard! (well OLD! but its nice!)

Say Goodnight To Oblivion
One Day of Starvation Away From Perfect
~NineSouls

CW: 120
GW: 115