depression sucks everything you have

today, depression is hitting me full on

my head is starting to hurt, im not hungry at all, i forced myself to eat because i felt sick to my stomach. my body achs every where, it hurts to even move to smoke a cigarette. i had a peice of cheese and a cracker. still not hungry...

there was a year that i was happy, i accomplished so much, was going into 10th grade, i finally passed since 7th, first time in 3-4 years... but it all wore off, and all the babysitting wore me down. i was not sleeping again, was drinking all the time, again..... life was another party.

i was depressed, again. not sleeping right, cranky.... i hate it. mainly because people know it because i dont smile, make eye contact or laugh. it hurts to even do that.

any one who suffers even from depression, dont let it surpass your life like other illnesses, though its not as worse, it can get pretty severe without the right help.

i feel like a dead ghost today