it was like.. four bites>< it was tiny! i also had one cup milk as well, 128! so thats not bad! the fast is on <3 Goodnight Oblivion..Hello Skinny! post later and tell you whats going on
i feel happy
that i can feel my bones
my collar bones are more defiant
my hips are starting to stick out
i feel happy
that everyone doesnt stare at me
or give me dirty looks
im happy
that i can control my food
something in my life that i can control
happiness with me isnt easily acheived
happiness to me it a far fetched fairy tale
but im smiling.
after the purge even, i smile.
im sure it wears off after a while,
but i still smile... because im attaining something
that shouldnt even be!
i feel so high empty
like im on drugs
just a little slower,
maybe ill just go faster.
because im going to attain something
that shouldnt even be!
today im lost, like every other day,
today im last, like every other person,
today ill fast, and lose another pound
tommarow ill smile again because im one day of starvation away from attaining PERFECTION!
i feel so high empty
like im on drugs
just a little slower,
maybe ill just go faster.
because im going to attain something
that shouldnt even be!
its so far away, yet right in my face.
i dont know what im doing here this fucked up place. but everything is do deep, so far fetched this life is.. eating, so over rated. we need something that wasnt given.. PERFECTION.
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