would any one classify me as a 'purging anorexic' or 'ednos' ? i know im 'clinically depressed' or whatever the fuck its called i dont need no goddamned diagnosis and i dont need pills. i've dealt with depression since i was a young girl and personally, i'd wrather deal with depressed and beable to control my suicidal thoughts then getting on some medication that could 'possibly' make the thoughts so bad that i would!
i was just thinking, any way. since december 2010 i either, over eat, under eat or purge. the only reason why i did tonight cuz the needle on the scale was fucking with me! i felt so bad after having TWO cups of milk and 4 or 5 ounces of meat (boneless skinless chicken breast) it kept skipping up to 126, which of course, its trying to sneak on me! the past two or three days its been on 125, it was almost 124 but i ate but thats OK! because we ALL know that i wont let it go up and if it does, then guess what? 18-20 hour fasts here i come! sneaking more food to the dog, purging more, HERE I FUCKING COME! cuz im gonna do it already. nooooothing tonight! noooothing tooomarow! whos with me?
oh! thank you for every reader! dont be afraid to comment!
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