on a more deeper level:
i get to thinking of how selfish depression and well, eating problems really is. and al though we all think about that, of course we do. but its one of those things thats.. a daily routine. a big part of ones life. or as mine, not so much a secret as it is a guilt.
God made us.. well as we were born, male female, FAT skinny, tall short. big boobs small boobs, different shapes and sizes. different brains, thinking patterns, EVERYTHING. im going to this:
it makes me feel bad that i hide this. not from God, but all of my thoughts. i dont post them here, i dont tell people half of what i think and feel. i probably never will. i guess you could say i hide from myself in a sense. maybe not, i dont KNOW. i just think, if im so perfect why i dont FEEL IT!? why doesnt God answer me, WHY!? i believe in him, do i love him?...i dont know..
there aint no rest for the wicked.. until we close our eyes for Good.
"no rest for the wicked" By: Cage The Elephant
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