old and new!

God i could say so much more but i have SO much to share!

yesturday; we had TV dinners ... for dinner obviously im stupid enough to point that out lmao... but the portions were TINY! so i wasnt complainin. it wasnt too bad atleast the chicken tasted like chicken.. the brownie was good. i weighed before @ 120 and after was 122! i think it was from the milk too. it was 1/2 cup mashed potatos, 1/2 cup corn about 5oz meat the brownie was a couple ounces! ahhh it was a lot but it was OK. i wound up eating at night! a sanwhich, 4 crackers and TWO 2 cup cups of milk! ahh! that was around 1 AM, it is goin on 4 so almost 15 hours if thats a considered a stupid fast then consider it done! we havent aten yet and i dont know what we're having.. and just the thought of that im kinda of freaking cuz i just dont know how much im gonna beable to have. i cant calculate on how little i can get away.. eh. dad and karen always so eat more eat until i do its never much more but i always wind up feeling too full and wanting to purge but i havent purged in the last two months .. proud of that! i wish i could just get away with not eating and have some beer; but i know poeple around here pay attention to what i eat or dont and ask make sure i do all that shit so I D K!!! we'll see what happens
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i was just eating my old posts. looking at this:

12-28-10 - 151 < started out as a diet! then freak out for holidays!


1-2-11 - 149 < 1200 cal diet 


1-5-11 - 146 < a pound a day


1-8-11 - 145< still 1200 cal diet


1-28-11 - 140 < it lead to about a 600 cal diet by then.


2-18-11 - 138 < 300 cals a day & purging


3-9-11 - 137


3-17-11 - 138 < night binging was purging by the last month.


3-21-11 - 135 < less then 200 cals by now.


4-22-11 - 133 < over exsersizing, walking 6hrs + undereating over purging.


4-25-11 - 131
4-27-11 - 130
5-6-11 - 128
5-18-11 - 127 < by this time it kind of slowed because i was not eating over 150 cals of fat or calories. i was constantly moving weighing myself, no eating at all at night nor durring the day. but theeen....


5-23-11 - 125
5-30-11 - 121 < thats the week i moved out of mikes! i 'fasted' for about two days and lost 3 pounds... from all the stress!
6-2-11 - 120!
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i just found out whats for dinner!!!! BLT!! just a sandwhich!! sooo thats not bad! so guess what? tonights intake: BLT: lettuce 3 peices of bacon 2 slices of tomato! and BEEER!!!! weekend, idk i wont be posting for a few days going to mikes and i know i can get away with not eatin much there!!!! blog tommararow as im not going till tommarow night!! Love everyone!!!

~One day of starvation away from perfection!

Goodnight Annabethany & Miamarie!

~~NineDieingSouls

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just had dinner and weighed in... with panties and bra on... 120! i went 16 hours without anything.. =)