and as much as i've been eating i havent gained more then that.... i just the best purge food.... which its sounding better and better the more i think about it ... purge free 2 1/2 months... about not to be i feel too full with that one thing. probably because all the fat... by this point my body is probably putting all the food i eat as fat. i dont know.... im kinda goin through a 'normal' period... which has been for about a month. i've been eating atleast one to three times a day then dinner and again at night. not just junk food wholesome things filling things. and not cutting a lot out... but its going right back down. i've been thinking about how im gonna get away with not eating... hide all day? i really dont want to eat. these 3 pounds are being stubborn. i know one thing; if i want to get to my 115 im gonna have to get-a-going. the guy i talk to that has 'issues' doesnt help any hes 180; drinks like a hoover, slacks off and eats like a little oinker. im REALLY hoping not to eat again.... karen took a zanny her doctor prescribed her so shes all like ahhh ooo =) and dad always assumes i've aten. i could have gottten away without it for the last three days.. very carefully but i dont like lies and deciet so i eat.. and i wait.. and i try to occupy so i dont purge.....
LW: 120
CW: 123
GW:115
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