well, i havent posted that much in a while. i usually wrote a lot but its been pretty crazy. boys, cigarettes, babysitting (my new joooob!) my sisters...that are plain dumb. and my UTI!
well i wanna start with eric. my bestfriends brother... hes 17......his age doesnt bother me so much any more. he is different with me around his friends/family. he took me out to a movie friday night and i stayed at his house saturday night (and wound up with a UTI) Jesus...well he's definatly a sweety. i dont know what else i can say. i've played hard to get for two weeks, lol. finally caved....the scary part is, hes taking down my barrier... my barrier of not to care. but i DO care. i care about poeple that care about others, about me. imma sucker for the sweet ones and he really is sweet. i dunno, i think thats why i put up my defenses in telling him no. that my feelings were that of... i would like him way too much way too fast. that scares me BAD.
WELL; my UTI (urinary tract infection) before i get to that lol ok 15th was my birthday (thursday) but i couldnt drink that much cuz i had to babysit friday. (god a lot has been going on !) so i went out to the movie friday night with eric..never went out with someone i was supposed to (which isnt working out any way we barley talk) so any way.. got PISS drunk friday night i started drinkin approx. 9PM and went on until 5:30AM eight hours of nothing but BEER and PISSING! to wake up the next morning to peeing REALLY fckin bad! IT HURT!!!! stupid STUPID STUPID! how i know its UTI and not yeast? well im not getting into that. i do know. =) i've had em before.. they are different from yeast infection. any way. taking antibiotics and drinking LOTS of cranberry juice!!
OK the real reason why i did this blog was becaue i felt like telling the FUCKING WORLD why i ENJOY smoking. since my 22nd bday was my 10th year smokin i thought i'd share.
1. tastes good
2. feels good
3.relieves anxiousness
4.APPITITE CURVER
5.i enjoy it way too much.
6.being bad is not a good enough answer.
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i just have what i like to call smokers cough. but come on, i starve myself to the point of pretty much fainting. which isnt something to be like woo hoo. but yea, lol.
Along with the UTI, and CRANBERRY JUICE! i've gained THREE pounds!! 112 to 115. STUPID! STUPID! STUPID!!
LW: 112
CW:115
GW:110
GOODNIGHT FUCKING OBLIVION
One day of starvation away from perfection!
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