lastnight was terrible, just terrible. like always, i wound up ating which ... makes me more down.
maybe this is me making it worse to blame this fake person in my head.
who wants that? is it a choice then? was gonna try to eat today but i cant bring my lips around any food, 139 WITH clothes on :) repeat: cant wait for summer =) thank god for my non-lonliness that i cant stop completely eating. Lastnight i denied dinner and mike was worried. so i had a 15 cal salad wound up eating with him after the fact to wake up and be 139 =) i really want to walk again. MY mind is too exausted and sad to excersize. i need scenery i miss being a lone with the wilderness.
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