I see like, hundreds of blogs with all their little 'ana' friends, or women who have suffered for years. i cant bring myself to talk to them because i feel like... i do not live up to their standards. its part of my thought process. i've always thought like that, matter of fact: all my friends in middle school, i didnt talk to them they talked to me. im very shy. and Very lonley in this situation.
so today, i think i can finally get away with skipping tonights food. i've been fucking dying for it. Monica and Mike had lasagna again. i really didnt wanna eat it. below my 140 mark again =) 139. gonna do this fast until tommarow night. knowing i can not skip my dinner. will just tell everyone i ate ;)
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