not too ashamed

i dropped down to 136, today, after one sausage(around noon) and one hotdog(a little after 5 for dinner), 137. :) this really IS getting out of my hands. so i have to thank people who inspire me to EAT atleast something:

first and formost my father, even though he isnt here to make sure i do eat, i still couldnt let him watch me waste away.

My beautiful and pain in the ass boyfriend mike whos always around and concerns himself with why i wont eat. i love him so much and would fall apart without him.

All of my lovely FRIENDS on babyFats chat, even though we all go through the same thing, everyone encourages me to eat. because i dont want to put myself through all of the years that you have. i really wish everyone the best in recovery. it may not mean much comming from, well a girl you've never seen but one photo of and has not done too much for any one else except give love and support, but sometimes, its all we need for insperation to do a little better each and every day. 

My dog cats and BIRDS :D; i love my animals, it seems recently they are the only living creatures that are able to make me laugh truely and smile forreal. they're so quarky !

My sisters, Tabitha lynn and Keri Ann, for giving me all the bullshit from the both of you to look at myself and say I NEVER WANT TO BE LIKE THAT !!!!!!!!

My oh so beautiful Nephews Colin Cayden Gaugey and my baby neices cierra and kaylee, for believeing in my life form, in my very exsistance. I love you soo much < 3

Last But NEVER EVER Least, My  Sister Over Seas, My bestfriend from scotland, Teri Elaine, for being there Every Single Day on MSN, for listening to me and making me laugh even if i was in tears. For just being YOU

in reality, if i didnt have mostly all of them people, i would isolate myself more then i do now (its getting bad again) i would starve myself to death, or just off myself. If i didnt think for one second that these people were here for me, i would definatly be going out in a body bag.