i ate... again. around, probably 300 cals. so i had about 4-500 cals today =( i was 128.. we'll see in the morning. i had little bits of this and that.. an 80 cal yogurt. some chocolate (not much not even an ounce) i dont even know it was even 400 cals i had today all i know is im 130 again after eating and im really scared i gained the weight back already! i just LOST it today!!! we'll see tommarow is a new day of .. well starving! tommarows dinner: Meatloaf. my serving: 1-2 oz. Night eating: HOPEFULLY NOTHING!!!! i was DOING GOOD! i didnt eat until almost 4! goddamned it. 3-4PM and 3-4 AM are the worst times for me! my stomach growls! its terrible im so tired of this! will post tommarow and tell you! its late! goodnight!
i know it dont seem like much but in my head THATS TOO MUCH! specially when i only had 2 oz meat for dinner. i RUINED IT! i was only 129 after then to eat. 130! ONE THIRTY! stupid fucking food! im not eating tommarow, i never do now during the daY! its MY punishment for eating durring the night! stupid stupid STUPID!!
atleast i will sleep well i guess
~Souls
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